Alice doesn't live in Wonderland

Alice Doesn’t Live in Wonderland is a memoir about growing up without emotional grounding, learning how to survive in silence, and later daring to feel.

Between a childhood marked by domestic violence, emotional neglect, and abandonment and an adolescence shaped by bullying, fear, and loneliness, Alice learns early on how to stay quiet, to adapt, and to create versions of herself to keep going. Home was never entirely safe. School was not always a refuge. The body carried what the voice could not say.

This is not a book about perfect victims or neatly tied endings. It is an intimate journey of awareness: the recognition of inherited patterns, the dismantling of shame, the attempt to understand one’s parents without romanticizing pain, and the confrontation with the invisible marks childhood leaves on adult life: in relationships, love, the body, and identity.

With raw, sensitive, and deeply human writing, Alice explores themes such as trauma, dissociation, grief, dysfunctional relationships, love, guilt, and inner reconstruction. Throughout the book, the reader follows not only what happened but also what remained and how it is still possible, even so, to choose a different path.

This book does not promise immediate healing.
It promises truth.

And it reminds us that surviving is not the same as living, but it can be the beginning.